Hello world! Todays post is coming to you live from the Amtrak .. since 1:00 this afternoon I have been traveling ... solo ... and have had nothing else to do but think. The flight I caught from Ohio to Maryland was short and sweet, but because of a "violent" storm hovering over the east coast, I had to take the train for the remainder of my trip to NY.
I didn't expect this trip in silence to be as therapeutic as it has been so far ... but then again ... that was the sub reason I took the trip: therapy! I needed a get-a-way ... somewhere to go ... far away from the everyday stressors in my life. I realized once you step outside the storm ... you are better able to assess it, decide what needs to be done, and go back in ... ten times better prepared than before. Every so often you have to remove yourself from a situation ... it may not be easy, and it may seem like an escape ... but it gives you the needed space and clarity to keep the fight going ... to keep living.
I have had to make some hard decisions lately ... I can honestly say that for the first time in my life, I have been dealing with real adult issues ... and had to challenge myself harder than ever before ... to make the right decisions ... for myself and for my future. The problem with adult challenges, is that you never know immediately if the decision you made was the right one. It takes time for your choices to show their consequence. So now begins the waiting game ... as I start the beginning of this trip ... I am symbolically starting the beginning of a new part of my life. This is a new chapter in a never ending book ... keep reading ... I promise, it will only get better!
~Dulche~
Thursday, June 23, 2011
Friday, June 10, 2011
Quit Smoking?!?!?
Ok world ... so here's the deal! I have been smoking since I was in middle school. My habit started socially, then transitioned into an abusive pack a day minimum. I knew it was a wrap when I started buying cigs by the carton! What makes matters worse ... NO ONE in my immediate family smokes, or considers smoking acceptable. To most of my fam ... cigarettes are just as bad as crack! With that said ... I never cared about what people thought. Even when I heard statements like, "You are too pretty to be smoking..." I never thought twice about my habits.
Then I had an epiphany moment! I have two kids ... two pretty lil girls ... and if they started smoking EVER ... I would destroy them and their pack of cigs! I quit smoking for both pregnancies ... so why can't I quit smoking for my OWN sake? Do I not value my health and body enough to stop? Along the same timeline of my epiphany, I had some company come in and stay with me from out of town. One day at the house we were having a convo about smoking and they asked why I smoked. Simple question ... not too intrusive ... so I proceeded to answer. But then the problem occured ... I had no real answer ... I didn't smoke because of stress ... I couldn't say it was fun ... its definitely not free ... so why did I smoke?!? As we discussed the pointlessness of it all ... I looked over and saw a tee shirt hanging up on the wall that used to be white ... and now is the color of a camel! That shirt has been up for probably a year now ... or less ... and has already been tainted beyond recognition ... all from people smoking in that room. Just imagine what smoking has done to my body since middle school! Damn!
I appreciate the "ah ha" moments in life for that reason! I know that we all do things when we are ready ... last month I would have never given you a timeline as to when I would quit smoking ... but with time comes growth and change ... I'm just glad this change is for the better ... I'm into my second day now ... with absolutely no want or need for a cigarette! Wish me luck ... I know there will be bad days and temptations ... I have faith ... I always have faith!
Then I had an epiphany moment! I have two kids ... two pretty lil girls ... and if they started smoking EVER ... I would destroy them and their pack of cigs! I quit smoking for both pregnancies ... so why can't I quit smoking for my OWN sake? Do I not value my health and body enough to stop? Along the same timeline of my epiphany, I had some company come in and stay with me from out of town. One day at the house we were having a convo about smoking and they asked why I smoked. Simple question ... not too intrusive ... so I proceeded to answer. But then the problem occured ... I had no real answer ... I didn't smoke because of stress ... I couldn't say it was fun ... its definitely not free ... so why did I smoke?!? As we discussed the pointlessness of it all ... I looked over and saw a tee shirt hanging up on the wall that used to be white ... and now is the color of a camel! That shirt has been up for probably a year now ... or less ... and has already been tainted beyond recognition ... all from people smoking in that room. Just imagine what smoking has done to my body since middle school! Damn!
I appreciate the "ah ha" moments in life for that reason! I know that we all do things when we are ready ... last month I would have never given you a timeline as to when I would quit smoking ... but with time comes growth and change ... I'm just glad this change is for the better ... I'm into my second day now ... with absolutely no want or need for a cigarette! Wish me luck ... I know there will be bad days and temptations ... I have faith ... I always have faith!
The beginning ...
Yooooo! Welcome, welcome, welcome to my blog!! First and foremost, thanks for checking me out! I have so many topics that I want to discuss ... and don't know which one to start with! Feel free to hit me up and request topics as well ... I have plenty of opinions and love to share them with anyone willing to listen! At my age, 26 going on 40, I love to see how my perspective has changed since I was younger ... and how it changes on a daily basis as I go through life and learn new lessons. Learn and grow with me! With that said ... stay tuned for more posts!!
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